Tomorrow College starts up, and I can’t get the Kingdom of God off my mind.

 I haven’t been to school in a year exactly, because of the year I took off for the internship in KC, and it seems so foriegn to my ritualistic thoughts.  College actually is a unique community in itself, the atmosphere even has a different feel upon entering.  Although many enjoy this atmosphere, I don’t necessarily appreciate it.  My pursuits are not in any way goal and career oriented, even though I understand the necessity of a job to survive these days, my mind cannot escape the thoughts on the Kingdom of God. 

Of course, I want to do everything possible to enter into the Kingdom of God when I die, but what about during life?  I’ve always thought of the Matrix movie as being more than just someone’s imagniation; it seems this world is less a reality than the spiritual one I read about in the Bible.  I’m overwhelmed with the thought that it’s possible for me to enter into the spiritual realms (to the degree the Lord would allow me to).  I’m intrigued by it, so much that I can’t even think about my modern lifestyle nor the fears I normally partake of the day before school starts.  I want so badly to enter into the deep things of the Kingdom of God. 

The simplicity surrounding me is too little a consolation for my mind.  I was created to feast upon the presence of God, and my senses to be riveted.  Though bothersome that I cannot do anything in my power to reveal these things, I will trust the Lord that His timing is perfect and I believe soon I will be able to walk in the Spirit.

Was I made to experience the throne room of heaven like John in Revelation?  Is it literal in the bible when it says to approach the Throne in all boldness?  The ensuing desire on my heart has been to see the Lord in ways like I’ve never even imagined, that He would take me away into the ridiculous places I used to call my imagination(in all biblical soundness of course), in real life.  I want His purposes and will to be established in my life, while we exibit a relationship composed of faith, friendship, and myself understanding the Kingdom of God still more and more:)